Sickening

This sore throat of mine is so sickening and irritating. Was down with a high fever on Thurs nite, which lead me to a day off on Friday. Darn.. spoiled my records of no MCs for the year. hahah. workaholic? Nah i'm not. Just responsible. muahah

am still in the office now, doing a lil work, chatting a little.. been up and around the whole day, was busy letting ppl pick names for secret santa. It's a bit more fun this year cos i know who's whose secret santa. hehe.

There's a lot of work in hand, and there's a lot of things on my mind. sigh.

Halloween

Oooh.. now i rmb what else I ate the week after my birthday. I went to Tony Roma's again ! and it was on Halloween, the restaurant and their staffs were all dressed up to the occasion. They wore masks, blood-stained shirts, and some did eerie makeup too.. with red fingernails ! Yikes.

It was a lovely dinner with Amy, Kelvin & Jo. A very spontaneous suggestion from Jo, and off we went. Was deciding between Tony Roma's and TGI Fridays. But after seeing this voucher for a free mocktail in Tony Roma's, we made up our mind.

Here are some very dark pictures from the dinner. heheh

The Onion Loaf

Amy and the Jack O'Lantern

That's me and the nicer Jack O'Lantern

Jo and the switched Jack o'Lantern.ngek ngek

Wheeeeeeee !

It's been a week plus.. Got lots to update, lots to tell..

Starting with 26th October ! The much awaited day.. got lotsa sweet wishes from friends and family, some which i thought wud never come came much later in the day.. Thanks guys..
It was a weekend full of eating ... *gulp*

My Pig-Out Itinerary

24th Oct Friday
Lunch - Izzi revisited , we went for their Inflation Busting Set Lunch, at RM12.99, you get a starter, main course, dessert and drinks ! not too bad ya.. I enjoyed my lunch in Izzi very much, for the very first time, I wasn't the one making sure that everyone got their food correctly. Thanks Jo !

Dinner - Met up with a dear friend and his smart girlfriend. finally got to meet her. Well, that's not the main point. haha. it's the scrumptious meal in Tony Roma's. I had the Shiitake Burger, and that was quite good.. portion was just nice, in fact, i think it's slightly smaller than Carl's Jr.Not that i can't finish one from Carl's ! hahaha

25th Oct Sat

Paintball day ! It was really really fun.. but also hot and tiring. And.. i must say the fried rice they served, was pretty awesome. haha. this is a makan post after all. :P

Dinner - Met up with all my dearies - Yi Ling, Ethan, Pei Kei and her other half. Finally we get to meet her tuition classmate, after all the stories that we have heard bout him. Ngek Ngek Ngek. We decided to fully exploit Yi Ling's employee benefit and settled on dinner at Nando's. In due time, we'll be able to order our meal by heart! It was a good session of grilled chicken and laughing and gossiping !

Supper - Was in KFC Kepong with JM, and no i did not have chicken.. i ate jelly ice-cream. hehe

26th Oct Sun
Breakfast - Got up really early, went back to Bentong to see grandpa. Had breakfast at "Big House" for a change, skipped the usual dim sum at SHL. We were spoilt for choices.. unfortunately they ain't that great.. my beef noodles was a disappointment. Totally unexpected. sigh

Lunch - urmm.. i think i had porridge with fried egg. simple but YUM !

Dinner - was promised by Dad to have seafood in Kuala Selangor, but ended up in Green View in PJ. It was a great Sang-Har Meen, beef noodles and Butter Crabs. But the bill was also a whopping 200+ ringgit. hmm pricey crabs ! But it was really good, very meaty crabs !

27th Oct Mon
Brunch - A simple Fare at Cold Storage, Ikano Power Centre. Hotdogs, mashed potato, and all washed down with my favourite peach passion yoghurt drink. Craved for popcorn.. and many other things..hehe. but only bought the popcorn. Wanted to get some Ikea curry puff, but the queue was super duper longgggggggggggggg.

Tea time - Stopped at this cupcake shop in The Curve, can't recall their name though, shared a Choc cupcake with JM, it was just ok. didn't really like the butter icing. Prefer the sinful chocolatey ganache.. mm.. craving for one from D'lish.

Dinner - A lovely dinner at Antonio's in TTDI. Had calamari rings, carbonara, and a quatro pizza, which had 4 diff toppings on it. Regretted of not ordering the Tiramisu.. was told that it's really good.

Dessert - I had a pretty awesome dessert though, we went to Delicious in Bangsar for some sweet treats, was a lil disappointed when some of the selections were not available, but after seeing the Classic Chocolate cake, I was much delighted. and after having it... I went.. hmmm... melting with pleasure. It's a recommended dessert ! A lil pricey, at RM11.90, the cake comes with a scoop of vanilla ice cream, and it's drowned in choc sauce which was not too sweet. just nice !

Trying to recall what else i ate on the rest of the week that spurred me to start this post in the first place, but can't seem to recall. Sigh.. really must get some gingko supplements to boost my memory !

P.s - Post completed and updated on 8th Nov. Can't blame me for not remembering the food i ate !

another week..another break

Finally it's Friday !! lalalala....

"I can feel your happiness, so tell me how's this happiness of yours progressing..."

That's what my friend said to me just now over the phone when i was sounding him for not calling and texting me for weeks.. what an idiot ! but a dear idiot he is lar.. you know how each of us have a buddy who you can just scold, yell and bitch to bout your most horrifying day..and then at the same time ask them if you are fat.. and they wil say.. just a bit.. hahaha
i'm lucky to have not just one but a few of them. hehe. so i'm contented.

It is finally the end of the week and the beginning of the long weekend. and it's my birthday on Sunday! I still feel like a 5-yr old when it comes to my birthday each year. and always silently hoping for surprises. oops. did i just say that out loud? ha ha

It has been the craziest and most stressful weeks lately, mayb it's just myself, panic-king and thinking too much ahead.. or mayb there are really many things that i ought to be doing and have not got to them yet. All the ideas are forming, but i never seem to have enough time to do everything, and can't set my own pace to do it. Aargh, it gets so frustrating at times.. I know what to do. .and I want to do it. .but have not done it. Darn, it's BUT again..
Attended Don Power's training last week, and he mentioned bout the usage of the word BUT. Am super conscious on me using it each time, and trying to minimize that. Picked up a few interesting tips from his training as well.. again.. noted it down de, just gotta put it into action!

Am suppose to be sleeping now, cos I gotta wake up early and get my butt out of the house at 7am, for paintball tournament in Shah Alam. Have not been to any game, no idea how it would be like, (can only picture the paintball episode from Ugly Betty, and i know that's so not the way it will be !) The only thing i know so far bout it is, PAINFUL. Everyone is saying that.. painful followed by the word - bruised. Yikes ! *Gulp* can i not play tmr?

ok ok .. I'm running off to bed now..still trying to imagine what's goin to happen tmr...

i survived

I survived my day. and it's finally past 5.30pm. For some reason, time seems to be passing really slow today..sigh. and to make things worst, i'm having that weirdy feeling in my stomach. yikes. hate it ler ! Craving for warm chocolatey stuff.. hehe. Chocolate is always a woman's best friend.That reminds me that i should probably stock up some in my drawer. So much for the avoid chocs rule - dumb melamine issue. Rule of thumb - a lil won't hurt you !

anticipation

Took the train to work today and got the chance to get a glimpse of my min bau chai. he is sooo cute ler. Even cooked up a plan with sissy to get his phone number.. omg. so high school. Bought my fav fish fillet bun and a bottle of soya bean and i'm ready to go.

The train journey wasn't too bad today, no disruptions, no delays and there's aircon. Well, that's the best you can ask from the the KTM. Seriously, they need to have major upgrades going, you can see a lil progress in the KL Sentral stop, as they have came up with the Easi-Queue system. They have finally realized that ppl push and storm in order to get in and out of the train. Thank god they did ! I've witnessed enough angry people, pickpocket victims, and poor old uncle aunties trying to push their way out of the train. Let's all cross our fingers and hope they keep up the good work !

It's a sunny day and i'm all ready to take the day ! i think. hahaha

Can't wait to watch my Desperate Housewives season 5 ! It's out ! it's out !

Unmet expectations

a week has passed since i was blank, worried, and stressed out

I'm still stressed out. It has been the busiest week ever with lotsa expectations from different parties around me. but i think the hardest to meet, are the invisible expectations that i put on myself. and to make things worst, they blocked Facebook at work. There goes my 5 mins stress reliever at 5.30pm.

Work has been hectic lately, social life has been.. wait a minute what social life? Half of the time, i find myself too tired to drag myself in for a shower before i go to bed. ( but i do lar !) To make things crazier, I took up a commitment with Megakidz on weekends. It's fun... but it's tiring too..

It's Sunday and here i am blogging from office. Came down to do some work, in order to prepare for the week ahead. the idea might sound absurd to some, but i like the serenity that i get working in the office alone. It's quiet, and i get to do my work at my own pace. I woke up early this morn, put my laundry in the washer, went back to sleep till 9.30am, only to be waken by my phone ringing. Got into the longest conversation ever, a tired and winding one. sigh. After some food, i went to bed.. yeah what a pig. slept till 1pm when mom,dad are back from bukit tinggi. Drag myself out of bed and made my way down here... and i'm glad i came.

On my journey here, i did a lot of thinking with my desperately tired brain and mind. Thought bout the past, present and possibly the future. There's just so much ringing in my head. I don't know which voice i should listen to. All of a sudden i feel lost.. I wanna run away.. to find my answers, wanna take a long break.. and hide from my sorrows...

blank

so blank. so stressed out. so worried..

whatever....

shattered

Came back from lunch and was seated at my desk, have another 10 mins of Facebookin-time. That's when we heard the loud crash right outside the department, all sorts of negative thoughts crossed my mind in that split second. Walked out of the department, and this was what we saw..



The glass door of the meeting room cracked and shattered all over the floor. How it happened? No one has the slightest idea... could be the temperature in the room.. or an angry ghost?

The sinful weekend

It was pure indulgence.

4 girls, catching up on sweet treats - sinful pleasures that are worth the many hours of cardio after that ! Let the pictures speak for itself.

Pistachio Cheese Cake

Green Tea Cheese Cake

Apple Crumble with Vanila Ice Cream

Chocolate Mudpie with Dark Chocolate Sauce (without the almond sauce :P)

Cast : from Zen Cafe, Mid Valley.
Back up cast : Lee Sun, Lee Fui, Jac & Amanda

subconsciously?

" You may be placing too much importance on your performance at work today. It's not that you should slack off; it's just that there are other things that need to be considered now, too. Don't be afraid to let your thoughts wander into the shadows of your subconscious, for it is here that you can discover the meaning that you seek."

honestly, I dunno what's on my subconscious mind, and it could be scary to discover what's lying in the corner of it..

Freedom of Speech

Coincidentally that's the title of my friend's blog, but i am not writing bout him nor his blog.

A couple of things that has happened recently got me thinking. Was thinking about the freedom of speech and thoughts on the Internet. Today, practically everyone is connected to the the Internet, and it has been the mode of transfer for news. advertisements, views and in a negative ways - rumours. In the recent months, there has been a lot going around about the group that has been writing controversial comments on the politics and the government resulting them to be subjected to legal punishments.

Of course, this is not what i have to comment on. I'm talking about the things one say or write, and how it affects their other half. Was talking to a friend, and she told me that she just hooked up with this guy, and the guy's status was "complicated" in the relationship field. And then there was this other friend, whose boyfriend's status displayed " in a relationship - but with the ex's name" . Then it hit me, are these status there for our own satisfaction, to express the way we view things? OR for other ppl to view it? When one writes on someone's Wall ( facebook app), do they worry bout their bf/gf reading it, and getting the wrong idea?

Why does a simple statement sometimes stir so much confusion, misunderstandings and to some extend - an argument ! It all comes down to a person's perception of a statement, however, i strongly feel that it also comes down to the trust and the communication that you have for your partner. One has the rights to communicate freely with their friends, and with all due respect given to their partner of course.

If you know the social ways of your partner, then you shouldn't be throwing in suspicions and slanted comments.If you trust your partner and have faith in him/her, you wouldn't be affected by what others are saying - some friends might find the need to 'report' on their findings to the respective person.

That brings my thought to a different question, if you were to bump into a friend's partner in a mall, hand in hand with someone else, what would you do ? would you tell your friend all about it, or let him/her find out about it themselves? A lot of thinking to be done ya? After all, that's a bit more serious issue. But if it's a minor issue - like writing on a Wall, sending a Flirt, is there for us to need to throw in judgements? After all, Facebook didn't create these applications for just couples... sigh. All in all, trust is the main factor that upholds the relationship, be it in a family, friends and at work.

The decision

I've made up my mind..

and i will keep to it.. it might be difficult at first, but i'm sure it's all for the better..

keep to it Amanda ~

A dedication

No no, i'm not dedicating a post to anyone..

It's a dedication post for me. ahaha..

take a look.

http://kongdoongwah.blogspot.com/2008/09/s-word.html

Let's see what my horoscope says for today..

" You are often comfortable with keeping secrets, yet now with four planets in your hidden 12th House, it may be a bit much even for you. Still, there's nothing you need to do about it. Recognize that being alone can be quite healthy and that you just may be your own best company today. "

being alone today is a good choice.. hmmm..

Darn the weekend

"Darn" seems to be the most frequently used word over my weekend.

My friend was to come over and fix my pc at 12 noon, but only turned up at 2.30pm.. Darn. He brought an installer dvd with the intentions to format my com, just to discover that i had not dvd rom. Darn. and many more darns throughout the day.
Computer was up and running by the time he is done with it. Yay, all my memories and precious moments are saved. Wah.. can't thank him enough..saved me the trouble of bringing it to Low Yat, and having my files all inspected, not to mention my privacy invaded.

Later in the evening, met up with Delores & Kg for drinks at Chili's One Utama, the crowd was huge as usual, plus the 'buka puasa' crowd. Fortunately for us, we didn’t have to wait, as Delores was waiting there already. It was a good few hours of drinks, chat, and later, a lil window-shopping. What? That’s what we girls do best. Mr.Leong - Too bad u have to tag along lor. *grins*

Sunday was another darn case. Wanted to wake up early to head to gym but my bed was too much of a temptation, so I only pulled myself out from bed at 10.30am..Made very rush plans to meet a friend, only to find it cancelled when I was at the train station, darn. And from there, it was just a quiet, rainy Sunday afternoon.

Later at night, we attended the belated Mooncake Festival gathering at the neighborhood ‘dewan’. It was a potluck gathering where everyone brought something from home, and sit down together to makan. Since mommy was in the committee, we “angels” have to help out a lot lor. Angels here definitely doesn’t mean the angelic type, it’s a nickname that was given to us by Uncle Choo Choo – one of the committee member of our RA. Us – the 3 sisters are always seen tagging along after mommy, thus the nickname “ Charlie’s Angels”, and Daddy’s name isn’t even Charlie to begin with!

The gathering was quite a success, it ended earlier than expected, and we had more desserts that we could ever imagine. The many trays of multi colored jelly, cakes, muffins, kaya puffs and cupcakes. I think the only item that was not there was ice cream! There were plenty of leftover, and we all packed them home, not letting it go to waste.

Thus the packed fried rice for lunch right now. Am digging in now, and then to catch up on episode 37 of Moonlight Resonance. All 40 episodes are out d, but I am resisting the temptation to Google it , as there would be spoilers ahead. hehehe

at 7 pm

am still in the office. Trying to finish up my list of " pls remove me". At the same time watching the 2nd part of Moonlight Resonance epi 33. Damn kan cheong de. The evilness is unveiling bit by bit. Have a feeling that the ending might be a sad one.. oh gosh, can't wait for it.

Am goin to hit gym after this, and then head home to yumcha with a high school friend. Promised that i will listen to one of his plans. He is a part time Great Eastern agent. Get the hint? Never liked to be persuaded into buying an insurance plan/ savings before, in the past few years, there has been lotsa friends who tried to talk me into it. I will always tell them i am not interested plus cannot afford that commitment. And the irony of things, my parent are both insurance agents, or i should say WERE. Thus, the very convenience excuse back then was to tell my friends that i'm all well-covered, and don't need any thing else. But I guess, I've come to a point now, where i should be making my own decisions and start planning for my future. Therefore, I'm making an exception and giving him a chance..shall sit down and listen to him after all.

Feeling so lazy to move my bum from this chair and head down to gym. All Josh's fault, ajak me to the Ramadhan Bazaar right after work. I have greedily munched on RM1 of keropok lekor, 2 pcs of sago kuih, and 1 hotdog on a stick. What a pig. Speaking about Ramadhan Bazaar, i just love it.. I miss the times when my friends and I would visit the one in Putrajaya, and the ones in MMU. oh those gluttony times !! Next on my list is the Kampung Baru Bazaar, have another 2 weeks time if i want to give that a visit. check out the pics at http://masak-masak.blogspot.com/2008/09/ramadan-bazaar-kg-baru-2008.html

alright.. buzzing off to gym now..

episode 33

already on episode 33 of Moonlight Resonance.

it started from episode 1 on Crunchyroll, and the addiction rolled down to now.

another 7 episodes and it will come to an end.

can't wait for it..

again

It's Monday again. i wished it was Friday again..

Foresee a long and tiring week ahead, with the ongoing training and all.

I wanna fly away ... really want to..

Don't Know Much

This was dedicated to me this morning, i listen to it and immediately fell in love with this song too...

Don't Know Much

Look at this face,
I know the years are showing.
Look at this life,
I still don't know where it's going.

I don't know much, but I know I love you.
And that may be all I need to know.

Look at these eyes,
They never see what matters.
Look at these dreams,
So bitten and so better.

I don't know much, but I know I love you.
And that may be all I need to know.

So many questions still left unanswered.
So much I've never broken through.
And when I feel you near me,
Sometimes I see so clearly.
The only truth I've ever known
Is me and you.

Look at this man,
So blessed with inspiration,
Look at his soul,
Still searching for salvation.

I don't know much, but I know I love you.
And that may be all I need to know.

I don't know much, but I know I love you.
And that may be all I need to know.
I don't know much, but I know I love you.
And that may be all I need to know.

Feeling old

Was in Sunway College yesterday to participate in their Career Fair. Together with Justine, we spend a few hours in the college explaining all about Marcus Evans to them. It's funny what some students think of us.

I arrived in SC much earlier than expected, told Just to take her time and I'll just walk around while to pass time. Explored the campus a bit, and stopped by their computer learning center to use the internet. Sempat lagi to update my Facebook status- " Amanda is surrounded by students"

I felt so out of place walking around in the college, surrounded by students carrying files and notes, and all dressed in shorts, jeans and fancy dresses. Am I that old already? well not really.. just that the times that I was still a uni student seemed so long ago. 2 years ago, I was still having a mamak session with my friends in FCM cafe - my fave! Love the food there and the ppl there. They are always so friendly and gives me lotsa pappadom.
And today, I'm walking around in a campus again, in very formal work attire and providing information to students about job prospects.
How time flies..

The days that I spend in uni are the most precious moments that could ever happen. The amazing 4 years of tears and laughters will always be in the corner of my mind, or my hard disk of course. Speaking of that, I'm so glad that my hard disk can be salvaged after all. I was literally crying when I found out that I couldn't boot up my PC. and thus the status, amanda lost part of her life.

Been catching up with some of my friends lately, from uni and high school. Feels good to be talking about the good ol days and finding out how they are doing now. Friends come and go, but the real friends stays..

oops.. back to work now. sigh. work work and more work. I want a holiday ! again !

make or break my day

Tuesday, 9 September 2008

Took the train to work today as aunty Kim is down with fever.
Stopped by at the bread stall at KTM station to get some breakfast, Sissy always insist of buying something, and now she buys for her friends too. hehe. The bread stall is run by a young man and her sister. occasionally assisted by an older man. prob the dad. He was talking to me and he said something that made my day.. this was how it happened

" It's been a long time ya, seldom see you nowadays"

" Oh yeah lor, I dun take train anymore.. but today my friend is not working"

" You are much thinner d, "

" Really? compared to? "

"Compared to last time lor, really wan, much thinner"

heheh.. that's how he put a smile on my face.. and.. he is quite cute too.. *winks*


what spoiled my morning was the f*cking monorail. sigh. it wasn't working, delayed my journey to office, and had to share a cab to work. ish !
but oh well, i still got to work on time too. at 8.15am, so much for coffee time.

The roadtrip

Went on a roadtrip with the bokana gang. The newly recruited bokanas are Amelyn & Rhubs.

On Friday night, we travelled up to Perak where Jee Kuan's family has a place there. The suburb is called Malim Nawar, it's a nice quiet Hakka Hor Poh village. We spend the night in this very kampung house, everything in there is so ancient.. there's even a well in the back portion of the house!
We all went to bed only at 4am. gosh, that's like 4 hours away from our wake up time. hehe.
1st round of breakfast - Josh, Jk & I had yummy toast with butter & homemade kaya.
2nd round - We all had wan tan mee! and it was only RM2.20 ! so so cheap leh..

We got to Penang about lunch time, and checked ourselves into a 2 bedroom apartment. As we all got ready to paint the town red, it started pouring..and it did not stopped til 9.30pm. sigh.. what a long wet day. well at least we got to eat some great hawker food, thanks to Aunty Girlie, Jee's colleague at The Star.

It was a great 2 days of eating and laughing and booze. We did not go clubbing as planned, which wasn't such a bad thing, cos i only had flip flops and sports shoes! hehe
We left Penang with a heavy heart, and a very full stomach, and a car full of tau sar peah! Ended the trip with a yummy dinner at Kok Hing.

Can't wait to have a next trip elsewhere !

bentong again?

Over the weekend, we made 2 trips back to Bentong.

We were back in Bentong on Sunday for the whole day, and on Monday, dinner in Bukit Tinggi. some would say, all the way there for dinner? sometimes i would think like that too, It's bout 30 mins away from home, and a 5 ringgit toll away, well to & fro makes it RM10 then. Come to think bout it, it takes bout 30 mins to get to Puchong too. the conclusion - dinner in Bentong or Bukit Tinggi is totally reasonable. and we are used to the travelling already. Dinner was great ! The dishes were pre-ordered, and it was served the moment we arrived at the restaurant. We had red wine to go with our meal , we all enjoyed it very much

Yesterday I went shopping with a friend in One Utama, it was quite a productive shopping spree. I bought 2 shirts, one polo T and one shirt for work. Thanks to my friend's HSBC credit card, we got 20% off the items in FOS. My friend had a bit more luck, he bought 3 T shirts, 2 work shirts and a pair of jeans. That's a lot of clothes.. hehe. shopaholic jugak ya..

If only we had more time, I would have got more clothes ! It is the end of Mega Sale already. now we have to wait till Dec for the next sale. then i can kuat kuat buy more clothes !Yay! By end of the year, Trace will be back to teman me go shopping. she is stil lthe best shopping kaki!

Gratefulness

Tonight, i'm feeling grateful for a few things.

am feeling grateful that I have great supportive parents. They would never leave me alone whenever i need help and guidance.

am grateful that I have such a warm loving family. all the jokes and laughter..

am grateful that I have many friends around me that care a lot.

am grateful that I have had someone who has always been by my side, for the past 5 years.

a dear friend told me that,I need to write down all the things that i'm grateful for, and all the things that I need to say thanks for, that's part of the process of loving myself more. Have I not been loving myself enough for that past few months? or past few years? Indeed there has been some patches of misery in the past few months, that sometimes leave me crying in my sleep. but i'm grateful for all the concern that was given to me by all my dearies.

It's a long weekend, and i'm glad i have this chance to just sit back and do nothing. well not exactly do nothing, after all, i was out for almost the whole day yesterday, at Bukit Jalil park first thing in the morning, and then in Cheras with Lay Yen till late afternoon. Not to mention the classmates gathering last nite. well a yumcha session to be precised. Have not seen some of them for a long long time. One was saying that we really should be planning a gathering sometime soon, bring all the ex-classmates together.Kinda half volunteered to do it d,but i need to know who's eveyrone, and search for their contact details first. But it sounds like a great plan.would love to meet everyone after so long. alright,will work on that then.

Fow now, my eyes are shutting and my fingers are pausing in between these words. Time for bed.

Good nite.

the storm

yet another a half written post..thanks to my laziness...continued in italics..


i'm talking about the storm of emotions that i'm going through at the moment. it's amazing how one's emotions can be up and down in a matter of hours or even minutes.


in the morn, i was feeling great..then a thing or two that happened at work got me so angry and pissed off. now that i try to recall, i can't seem to rmb what was it. well, that's me, i can sweep off my sorrows in just a a matter of a few minutes, but sometimes i choose to dwell in it for a bit more.


trying hard to rmb what i intended to write on Thursday, but my memory has failed me badly. what to do.. old de.sigh

the storm

it's raining mad cats and dogs. reason for the word mad? cos it's really really bad..

why must it pour like this , just on the day that i want to leave office early. Mom texted and told me to come home early for dinner. which is something that has not happened for quite some time d.. hehe not becos mom doesn't cook dinner, but just that dinner has always been a simple affair on weekdays.. cos we all have our own activities.. and sometimes sissy doesnt wanna eat rice too.

Took half day off today, went and made my passport. Mom and I made our ways to the immigration office in Sri Rampai. Based on the 2 maps i printed out from the Internet, we found our ways to the place. and whoever said women can't neva read maps! ha ha ha. Collected my passport in just an hour! That's super fast leh!

Left Sri Rampai at 9am, then headed to grandma's place at Jln Ipoh for breakfast. it was such a great thing to be having breakfast at 10 am and not at work! After breakfast and visiting grandma, mom sent me to Titiwangsa monorail station. Reached office at 11am, but of course it was too early to be at work. hehe. so i went over to Times bookstore in Pavilion, and read a few good books there. decided to buy some J Co donuts for my team members.. always liked the task of selecting donuts there.. the colourful selections seems to put a smile on my face each time.

looking out the window and the rain is still pouring.. sigh.. should i or should i not just walk in the rain. with my umbrella of cos..

hmmm.. i shall do just that.

a trip

trip~ stumble, miss a step and fall or nearly fall

That's my definition of trip for the day. As I got off mom's car this morning, after the 2nd step on the road, the heels of my shoes got caught, and i missed my step. Down i went on my both my knees and palms. *ouch* it was a painful fall, but i picked myself up and walked again lor.
i'm not too badly injured, just some cuts, or whatever you call it, cos it was caused my the friction from my jeans and the fall.

What a way to start my Friday morning, but nothing will stop me from buying a pack of hot, fresh breakfast ! As i was buying breakfast, was feeling a little guilty from the late dinner i had last nite. well, supper to be exact, at 10.30, me and sisters went to Rajoo's - the mamak stall outside my house. We had a feast of Nasi Goreng Kampung, Tom Yum, roti canai and roti Bom! and sissy had 2 cups of sirap limau, tambah limau. The bill came up to 16.50.. hmm have never paid so much for a mamak session for 3. we all went back with a very full stomach. hehe

but oh well, that was last nite, so i'm diggin in now.. into my breakfast.. yum..

a new day

the sun's out.. and it's a bright and sunny day!

started my day with a fresh pack of nasi lemak, packed with all the calories and cholestrol! whatever !

am learning how to let go of things, let go of my anger and disappointment. the worst of things might have happened, but it's important to learn how to forgive, to eventually let go of the miserable feelings that were once mounted in your heart. it's always easier said than done, you can say it to anyone, to your friends, to your partner, or even to yourself. but when you try to do it, it takes an extra inch of effort. i told myself that i will get there, to release all negative energy and walk on with a renewed strength..

it's mid-week already, and very much hoping for the week to end now! am dying to go off on my own, for a short spa trip perhaps.. any suggestions?

i walked alone...

Left the office at 7pm, went over to pavilion alone, ate over-priced porridge with you-tiao alone, walked to Hang Tuah station alone. along the way, bestie called and talked to me a bit.. assured her that i will be ok, and i can do it. *clicked* went the phone. and the song starts playing.. well, not that i mind eating or walking alone, though one once said that i will not have to do that ever again.. but i guess things change..

the word that is ringing in my head now is LOST. where exactly is that? am i there already?
am trying to figure out the irony in all things around me.. especially when one said A, but does B ?
what am i blabbering about ler..my brain is full of thoughts and my heart filled with emotions, but i can't seem to be able to express it.. i made the choice to shut it in there...and i think that's the right choice.

Amanda FM :

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

a gloomy one

am definitely not feeling great on this Monday morn.

had a very disturbed sleep. woke up several times throughout the nite, am feeling awfully tired though i slept at 10 pm, after the disappointment of Chong Wei's defeat in the Olympics Men's Singles.sigh.. our only hope.

coming back to work today feels different.. the absence of ppl at work, and the absence of you in my life. never thought it was this difficult, you must thought that i'm heartless and cold.. i'm mean and cruel... but i have feelings too..

trying.. and trying to cope...

be strong..

some love

I found some love in my pockets...both pockets infact..

someone sweet who cares left it there.. thank you for all the care and concern.. don't you worry, i will be stronger !

muahs..

was feeling a little depressed from the moment i woke up from my bed. wait a minute, i think it was from the moment i dropped on my bed last nite.

last nite was a drag.. sigh. the words that were still ringing in my mind this morning was, a dinner, a movie, a prom, a convo, a whole different level.. whatever that means...

was a little late for work today, had soup for breakfast and was dragged into meeting room for a meeting on our recruitment efforts. 2 out of 3 new recruits have left, in just a matter of days. what a bummer.. boss went on n on bout a few other stuffs.. but.. obviously my heart wasn't in the room. it was far away. mayb on the roof of mariott hotel across the road? i wonder.

there's been lotsa chaos in the dept these 2 days.. with the man of cos. first courtney, then myself. i wonder if a man can actually pick up the emo bit of female co-workers. though we try hard to work and talk like him, but.. cannot ler..

my depression level dropped after lunch, after the fancy lunch we had at the banana leaf place. It's actually known as Criz garden cafe, but oh well they serve banana leaf rice mar.. thus the common name. it was a farewell lunch for Hide, Lay Yen and Yi Ling. sigh. all 3 of my team members.. dread it man. it means lesser team members and greater recruitment effort! gambate girl !

and for now.. to do a lil shopping.. for myself, and for ppl that i care for *winks*

finally

Finally, by Fergie. Was listening to it the whole weekend.. nope.. it wasn't me whose obsessed this time. It's sissy. gosh... she is playing it over n over again.. dun get me wrong, i love that song too. but playing it everytime she switch on the mp3? hmm...

Finally, am done with training at work.phew, am dreading the routine already. and each time, i'm worried if i do say all the right things and the same things. It has to be consistent mar...Oh well, i'm sure there are many more opportunities to practise. given the fact there's ongoing recruitment.

Finally, come Aug 8, and the much anticipated event took place. we all gathered at Ballroom 3, Crown Princess Hotel. and at 8.08pm, the bride and groom walked in. ( ok mayb not exactly at 8.08pm. =P ) It was a great nite and there were a lot of posers in action. View them in my facebook.

Finally, i got all the group photo from Bentong all sorted out, and posted on Facebook.

Finally.. it's end of Tuesday. time seems to be crawling today..

Finally, i'm heading to gym today.

hungry n tired

yes, i'm still in the office.just finished screening the pile of resume on my table, and someone has to throw in some extra comments bout my timing of getting it done.. tsk tsk tsk. FINE..whatever

am so hungry now, had a cracker 5 mins ago. dun feel like having anymore..i wanna go eat Sushi at Ichiban..should i or should i not?

haven't finalise my outfit for tmr's wedding dinner.. but oh well, whatever la.. i'm not the star. taking the famous quote.. just gonna sit down the whole nite and ppl ain't going to notice. forgive my crankiness.. it's probably the starvation + gastric i'm feeling right now.

can't wait for tmr.. so many things to do, yet if feels like so little time.

the week is coming to an end already! That's fast.. am taking half day off tomorrow, wanna get all dolled up for Jared's wedding. can't wait to meet everyone at the dinner, it's been a while since we had any family gathering. and it's a good thing that we are all meeting up for an auspicious wedding. it's jared kor kor's wedding. hehe

the thought of gettin to leave office at 1 pm tmr gets me jumping with joy, but that would prob mean working a little later today to finish up all the work piling on my table. hmm.. gotta settle the paperwork for the 3 newbies, submit forms to HR, process the expenses claims, commission claims,outstanding emails in my inbox.. wah macam banyak kerja jugak. have to submit all these forms to HR fast fast cos it's pay day next week. woo hoo !!

slept slightly earlier last nite, which was 1am. earlier meaning earlier than mon, tue, wed nite. hehe. addicted to my D.I.E series, been watching it every night ! akibatnya, the very obvious dark circles under my eyes. not that it wasn't there before.

today is the last day of training the new recruits. am getting the hang of it already.. but still....nvm..

the saturday

was supposed to join my Raleigh friends for rock climbing @Summit on saturday, but turned down cos thought momsie will bring me to aunt's house and suppose to go to Ampang Point together. Last minute, as usual... dun wan to go wor.. ish.. so bengang, felt like i stayed home for nothing. But luckily for aunt's "i'm not giving up" spirit, i went down to town to meet up with my uncle and followed him home. the exact line from her was " she is my BFF, i know she won't bring u to my hse, so i have to think of other ways." and her BFF is my mom. muahaha.. my aunt is a rare piece.. the best relative i can ever get !!

So off to a boutique in Ampang Point we went, it was called 'My Wardrobe'. I tried on more than 20 pcs of clothing i think.. oops. mayb 30 ! After almost 2 hours of fashion montage, i asked for the bill, it came up to....*drumroll pls* 121 ringgit only ! and that's for 7 pcs , 6 baju and 1 skirt. *krraacckk tinggg* macam hit jackpot d! looked at the original total on my receipt, and it was RM406. Looks like i got myself quite a bargain.

We headed to grandma's house after leaving the boutique. Was suppose to go meet the Canadian clan. Jared was coming back with his wifey, Maggie - everyone was so excited to meet her. On the way back, along a road in Ampang, we had to stop as the car in front of us changed her mind; she decided to turn right instead of going straight. we waited quite a bit, and my aunty ( as usual) was getting impatient, and out of nowhere, lil Natalie said in her cutest voice
" honk la.. what are we waiting for ? " no doubts that she is my aunty's daughter!muahaha.

Finally we all met Maggie, no doubts, Grandma was the happiest person.. and everyone made such a big fuss over the newlywed couple. It was a very noisy dinner, but no one's complaining as it has been a while since there was a wedding in the Chan family ( mom's side). Too bad cousin not doing the whole ceremony in Msia, apparently he did that in HK d. so it'll be just the wedding reception on Friday night. ( which reminds me, i kinda don't have anything to wear yet, Darndest!)

It's already the month of August, its scary how time is flying pass so quickly, one moment, we were doing a countdown on the Beijing Olympics, and now, it's taking place this Friday! Where has all the time gone to?

feeling emotional

ever felt emotional or depressed? what do you do? you'll be surprised how different people deal with it.. some let it out, some keep it deep inside them.some people keep quiet all day, some snap at you at everything you say.some goes for a jog , lashes at their partner, and so on.

i either find myself sighing the whole day or talking bout it all day long ( pity the woman beside).

feeling so emo that i dun feel like writing anymore... sigh

Sex and The City

finally, i watched Sex and the City. watched it with my colleagues @ Pavilion yesterday. it has been a long awaited movie, SATC ended at Season 6 where we saw Carrie moving to Paris to be with the Russian, and just to find herself back in Big's arm. And then came July 08, when Carrie and her best friends along with her Manolo Blahniks, Prada and Dior will finally hit the big screens.

The addiction started 6 years ago when i was introduced to this series by Cheng Yee. I was back in uni then and used to hang out at her place to watch one or two episodes before dozing off on her bed in her air conditioned room. =)
After Season 1, i was hooked on to it, then i started sourcing for it myself. Back then, i never knew the existence of online streaming sites nor torrent sites, so it was good old Kazaa. Episode after episode, i waited patiently for it to download. The anticipation made me a more serious addict. After 6 years, I'm still a big fan.. the tv series has made me cry and laugh, and so did the movie yesterday.

As there were 9 of us, we occupied the whole row in the cineplex. even the guy who was sitted in the seat beside me switched to the back row. i wonder if it was the smell of the 1901 hotdog or our noise that turned him off. hahaa.

As the movie progresses, i find myself laughing and crying at the same time. It was a good thing that it wasn't a very packed cinema... so no one saw it i hope. There were some scenes and some conversations that took place which reminds me very much of what i've been through, or what i am going through. Given the fact that i know exactly what happened to the characters prev, i could relate to it better and i kinda feel them in some scenes. ok, sounds a bit over, but i get kinda emo when i'm watching series that i really really like. Cried like a baby whenever i'm watching The OC, and sometimes, Desperate Housewives make me cry too. ok fine, i know i'm a cry baby. but i can't help it. i must be having some kinda tear gland disorder.
when i checked my watch, it was past 8pm, and the movie was coming to an end.. and i knew that was the finale of SATC.. and i just sat there enjoying the last mins of it. wiped my tears before the lights came on, didn't want the rest to see me teary when they were laughin throughout the movie..

We all went on our own ways, heading back home. and as for me, my mind kept thinking all the way home...
i wonder..which ending would i get in the future, would it be Carrie's, Miranda's , Charlotte's or mayb Samantha's?

that i need to decide, and work for it..

a will?

was looking up the right term for money given to express condolence when a thought struck me.
btw, ended up using the term condolence money, did not know how to refer to 'pak kum' in English. literally, white gold? errh..

the thought that struck me was, what if i were to die young (touching the wood d), and die all of a sudden ( clinging on to the piece of wood d ) then what will happened to my possessions, as i wouldn't have written a will yet. well, if it was a young age, i believe there's not much of properties, or huge stash in my bank account, but i guess that can all be sorted out.

my thoughts are more like, hmm what would happen to my diary, my love letters, my many precious letters and cards. what if mom finds them? and what if she reads my diary then? and another thing that hit me was, what if i never got the chance to tell people i love what i always want to tell them? and things that some people never knew, and i always thought that someday, sometime, i want to tell them. ( mm.. need to tell my primary sch crush that i once had a crush on him? haha)

then i talked to my friend, and the first thing she said was " you crazy ar ??think bout this !" But that's what a will is for ! for your to leave your properties and belongings to someone else.
courtney suggested me to leave my last words in separate envelopes with the names on it. hmm.. should i write their address or mayb they hp no there? hehe

as for my diary.. mm. definitely dun wan mom to go thru the nooks and crannies in my life, there's a reason why it was written down in the first place.. cos they are something i wan to remember...hmm get mom to burn it?

oh gosh.. gettin a bit too much d.. might worry close friends around me..

if you know me really well.. it's just one of those thoughts..

oh well..

the great trip

am having a hard time keeping my eyes open for the day.feel the need to stick it up with toothpicks !

wait a minute, i thought i had enough hours of sleep the night before, as soon as i got myself cleaned up, i landed my tired self on the bed.. and try to doze off. it took me a while to doze off, and not to mention interrupted by phone calls and texts coming in. finally at 11pm, i think, i was carried into dreamland.. just that i didn't have any dreams.. not any that i can remember of.

It was a great trip yesterday, and we all had fun fun fun ! The jolly group consisted of Lay Yen, Yi Ling, Neil, Amy, Amy's boyfriend, Jo Lyn, Court and myself. We went to Bentong in 2 cars, Lay Yen's and Amy's. Mom and Dad went back as well. Being early risers, we left KL at 7am, and got there at 8+. The whole idea was to experience the nice and cooling weather in the morning. We had breakfast at SHL, more well known as Song Hee Lau, but i guess they want to be in the MNG trend as well, thus the nama glamour. The dim sum was so so only, but dad paid for it ! yay. so let's say thanks beramai-ramai. :P

Brought them to the Bentong market and pasar pagi for a quick look before heading to uncle's house. Dad was there, waiting to lead us to uncle's orchard in Karak. Sempat lagi we shop a bit at the market, bought candies and some pretty looking cakes. Yi Ling bought some yam flavoured cake rolls, which porous texture reminds us so much of wristbands ! hehe. will put up the pic later for you to judge.

Made our way to Karak at bout 9.45am, and was there in bout 15 mins? this time the road wasn't that hilly, so Lay Yen's car could go a little faster! hahaha
Dad had to ferry us into the orchard in his X-Trail, as the road leading to the orchard was very muddy and full of bumps. Was dropped off at the path halfway past the main gate of the orchard. The fruit fiesta started as soon as we reached the small hut in the heart of the orchard. There were mangosteens and durians. We hiked up the hill to look for more durians, and of course we left the road not taken for Neil. It was a bit too adventurous for us. After bout 2 hours of fruity time in the orchard, we made our way back. again, dad will have to bring us out, of course.

On the way back to grandma's house, we did not miss the opportunity to ta pau kopi ping from Leong Yew. yum ! nothing like a sip of cold kopi ping to cool us down on a hot day. Back in Grandma's house, and everyone was looking forward to conquer the rambutan tree. poor tree, it was half botak when we were done. or should i say when he was done with it.

Had late lunch at "tai cheong" ( well, that's the name i was told). Had my fav yin yong, and it was yum ! after finishin our noodles, we changed our mind about having dinner in Kepong.. cos we were way too full already! Still, some people had room for Kowpo ABC. hehe..

Made our way back to KL and reached home bout 9pm, Lay Yen still has the important duty to send Yi Ling & Neil home though. haha

all in all.. it was a great trip.. and we all have a great time !

the question now is , when's the next trip?

Tirednya....am back from Training Day 1 .Department's internal training is taking place for 2 days in Parkroyal Hotel. The training ended at 5pm, and just thought i'll come back to office to get some work done and to pick up my gym gear. ahem ahem. might or might not end up in gym. hehe

oh, i can't wait to watch Sex and the city ! and Batman of course ! oh, i mean Dark Knight. Have to find time to watch it next week! Hmm, am still thinking who i should drag along to watch SATC, it would be more fun to watch it with a big fan. Was reading the movie book the other day in Borders, and oh, i just can't wait to find out what's instore for the Carrie, Miranda, Charlotte and Samantha !

and for now.. i should pack up and go back ! woo hoo !

what do i really want?

was strolling along Petaling St yesterday and i found myself falling into an emo stage. As I stopped at the junction of the road, waiting for the traffic light to turn red, a thought came to my mind and I asked myself the very important question, "what do you really want ?"

Should I totally cut it off, without giving it second thoughts, giving it a new start OR i should give a little bit more time, observe how it will grow. I'm getting more and more disturbed by how complicated and how undecided I am. Can't even decide on a simple decision like a haircut. sigh so i left the doorstep of Peter & Guys and crossed the road.

Many times i find myself in this position, not knowing what i want, not knowing what i want to do. To some point, i don't like choices, for I fear that i might choose the wrong option. As i was
walking down from Pudu to Petaling St, memories flashed through my mind..those were the days when we used to walked down that street, taking buses from Puduraya, having KFC right opposite the station,using the toilet in Hotel Impiana ( now known as Ancasa, and they have relocated the toilet in the lobby), walking along the busy street of dvds, branded begs and watches, having beef noodles at Shin Kee. Even passing by the many flower stalls near Popular bookstore brought back fond memories..They weren't all happy ones, there are pieces of sad and angry moments but they are all precious to me. The few minutes of flashback got me thinking again, where am i heading and what am i doing? sigh

Passed by the flower stall again, decided to pick up a bouquet of flowers for mom. Was deciding between roses or carnations ( choices again ). Carnations are flowers that you usually get for your mom, then again, the 2 dozens of roses put together was really lovely.. In the end, i took the carnations, it was 24 stalks for RM12. that's such a good price ! And men pay hundreds or even thousands for flowers on Valentines Day.. mm.. isn't it about time they realized that flowers are just overrated on V-Day?

talking bout flowers, a very nice bouquet of roses was delivered to work today. It was for a colleague of mine, it's her birthday today . Her bf has sent her flowers on a few other occasions. aaw so sweet..

oops. it's 2pm d. back to work then..

an eventful Sunday

Went back to Bentong for the day, Dad brought a few friends to uncle's durian orchard to look-see look see. and we, had to stay home cos there weren't enough space for us in the car wor.. ish

Dad left us orders to pluck the ripe rambutans from the tree in front of Grandma's house. So out came the 'galah' and the cutter.. Sissy, Abby and I took on the challenge, beginning with the lower branches, then moving up to the higher ones. Sissy even climbed up to the roof of the chicken shed to reach out to the higher bunch. After one hour, we ended up with 2 whole baskets of rambutans and lotsa ants ! But it was a great deal of fun, and who said girls can't do this ? hehe ( my bro would have said that :P )

Tagged along to Karak for lunch and to get 'durian bomb' from the famous Yik Kee. They are also well known for their siew paus, egg tarts, durian tarts and pandan egg tarts. yum.. The durian bomb cost RM1.80 each - a lil expensive for a small piece of pleasure. hmm..
Had vegetarian wan tan mee in Karak ,it was not too bad. On the way, i did not miss the chance to ta pau some good 'ol Kopi Ping from Kedai Kopi Leong Yew. yum ! Cousin sis drank Teh-kiamsi-Ping. It's tea with a dash of coffee, made with evaporated milk instead of condensed milk. Yummy!

We left Bentong at 8.30pm after a light dinner at Yee FaTT - one of our frequently visited dinner place. Had noodles instead of the extravagant dishes we usually order, i guess everyone was still full from the feast of durian we had in the afternoon.and we have more to bring back to KL, it's sitting nicely in the fridge, waiting to be savored tonight. muahaha

it's 5 mins to 7pm and i'm still in the office.. was supposed to leave at 5.45pm to Mid Valley but i missed my ride.. it's all his fault. ish..

thought for now: gym or no gym? hahah.. forever asking this question. but hungry lar..

my first Yoga session

work was kinda crappy yesterday..urgh

had a talk with boss, he was questioning me bout my span of control and my leadership skills. sigh i know that i'm not up to his expectations, but trust me.. i'm trying and learning.
he left me with 3 questions to ponder on.. aye aye boss.i shall sleep on it!

was having stomach upset..ish, been feeling like that the whole week.. darn. quickly finished up what i had to do today, cos i wanted to leave sharp at 5.30pm. wanna go for my trial session of Bikram Yoga @ True Fitness. I got to gym 2 mins too late, and the class started already..fortunately there was a Ananda yoga class at 6pm.. so i went in for that.
Really enjoyed the class, it was very slow paced and peaceful, and the sweating out part was great ! I did stretches that i never knew i can.. haha.. i was trying hard to touch my toes.. and i did after a few repetitions. hmm reminds me of Po from Kungfu Panda who can't see his toes, let alone touch it ! But of course i can see my toes ! It'll be really scary if i can't, unless I'm heavily pregnant.. hmm. which i can't really imagine for now.

a sudden thought - what is the word for fear of pregnancy.. i'm sure they have a word for it. they even have a word for the fear of Fridays. so here you go , the long list of Phobia - http://phobialist.com/
it's an interesting thing to do, to browse through the list and see what are the phobias that actually exist! have fun doin that !

and for right now.. back to work..

MIBC 2008

MIBC 2008 - it's Malaysia International Bakery & Confectionary 2008.

we were there to check out the amazing creations of the participants and exhibitors. among the programmes on that day was a 'pulled sugar' demo by Chef Leslie from Shangri-La Hotel, we were there only to catch him forming the body of the supposed to be phoenix.. but our legs couldnt take the waiting.. so we left.. hmm i wonder how does the end result looks like..

here some pics we took..

that's Yi Ling with the visitor pass..

a lovely wedding cake

check out the miniature bakery

cakes and desserts

more cakes and dessers

don't you feel like having some already?

a nice sculpture

in conjunction with Beijing Olympics 08

impressive !

deciding what we should have for lunchtrying to look cute. :P
mz pei kei chosed Kim Gary- finally..Yi Ling's glass of yummy Mango Sago something..

what a Monday

first came the great Sunday , then the crappy Monday..

started the day really early, and went out to gym. was just in time for Body Combat class, and it was a great one hour of workout.. did some weights and off to the showers. am getting ready to greet the sale ! stopped by at Nicchi and bought a black dress, it was really simple but nice.. and it was a bargain, it was only RM42! and verdict is - a woman should always have a LBD in her closet.

met up with Delores and did some catching up, talked and talked..bitch bout some things and then said some nice things bout people.. have to balance it mer.. am learning from a wise old friend that we should not say anything negative.. ( at least that's what Delores said ! haha)

after much window shopping later, we said our byes and headed home separately. Dropped by the supermarket to buy some veggies, fruits and milk. Must start eating healthy, no more curried rice for lunch! hmmph...

Then came my 'lovely' Monday, dragged myself out of bed, and made my way to work. Whole body was aching from the combat class, the phrase lacking of exercise is highlighted in red right in front of me.. Pulled through the day, and was all looking forward to 5.30pm, it had to pour heavily, just when i want to head home early.
The rain stopped bout 6+, and we left the office at 7pm, and took a slow walk to Hang Tuah station. Eversince Yi Ling shifted there, been walking there more often, well it's a pretty good opportunity to exercise more, especially on the days that i skipped gym to have dinner ! muahaha..

At KL sentral, i managed to catch the 8am train which was waiting at the platform, and i was thinking "goody, i can get home by 8.30, have my dinner, and hit the sack". The train travelled through the stations smoothly, and just before the Kepong station, it HAD to stop.. to beri laluan to another train it seems..crap... the train was halted for more than 15 mins.. and i only got down at 9pm.. so dumb..
Mom wasn't particularly in a good mood, so had to put up with her lashing in the car.. and it went on and on till we reach the doorstep of my house. sigh.. wrong timing mom..

after finishing off the chores that i usually do without being told.. i ate my 2 pieces of kuih bakar and milo ais.. and off to my room i went..

i seeked comfort in my cozy pillow and bed.. my sanctuary it is...

Day out with my girls..

Weekend started with Month End @ Mojo on Asian Heritage Row.
It was just so so, food was ok, drinks sucks and the place is so small. would have like the place if i was there with a small group of friends.. but for a company event. tsk tsk

Left at 8.30 with Yi Ling and head to Borders to lepak a bit, while deciding what to do on Saturday.
Had a plan - to go lepak on Saturday, just us - the girls, but .. there was no plan. no destination in mind, no foodie places to check out.. hmm..

came Saturday, met up with Lay Yen and Yi Ling @ sg wang at 10.30 - the penang Zhabo wants to sleep a while more, so she ditched us for her bed.. with some simple directions by beloved daddy, i brought them to Yut Kee @ Dang wangi for breakfast..
We sat down and ordered a choice of main dish each, but the orders went on and on, till the table was all full with plates of food. We had the fish porridge, curry mee, the ever famous Roti Babi , toast, steamed bread, half boiled eggs, kaya roll and butter cake.. and to wash it down - a yummy kopi ping !







After breakfast, we headed to Sogo, a fickle me then suggested Mid Valley instead. after 15 mins, we found a parking spot, and head right into the mall. Tak jadi wanna watch a movie as the queue was too darn long. so it was a shopping trip then.. much to my delight !

Mz Zhabo came by around 3.30pm, and after some shopping, we went to Kim Gary for some food and camwhoring.

Left MV at bout 6, having dinner with mi familia, have not had dinner with mom+dad for some time d. *gulp* There was a massive crowd at the KTM station, oh well, what's new.. there was a girl whose phone was nicked right from her hands.. but it was just too crowded, she couldn't make out the person who took it. poor girl..

Had pre-dinner at home - DURIANS ! then headed to Jln Kuching for dinner, it was yummy ! a simple fare but great food it was ! and it's worth the price ..

Didn't do much at home, just watched some drama and went to bed early.. tired d.. my bro went out for movie at 12am.. while i rather crawl in my soft comfy bed. signs of me getting old..

thought of the day :girls, stop callin me Mom.. sigh

my kopi ping

nothing starts my day with a good dose of kopi ping ! and sometimes it makes a good nightcap. huh? coffee for a good nightcap? hehe ..caffeine only keeps me awake when i want it too :P

ta pau-ed my kopi ping from wisma cosway, though it's not as strong as the other stall on this side of the road, but oh well, that will do. it's 30 cents cheaper anyways.

am looking forward to tomorrow.. cos it's month end drinks and it's also the weekend ! am thinking of what i should do on Saturday, been meaning to catch up with Patricia, whom I've not seen for a long long time..i think the last time i saw her was when i bumped into her at Mid Valley.

There seems to be a lot happening on my calendar for the next 2 months, but the most looked forward to event will be Cousin Jared's wedding. on 08.08.08 hmm.. nice no, the chinese would say " go buy ToTo". His whole family has migrated to Canada many many years ago, but all the relatives are here in Malaysia, hence the wedding reception in KL. hmm.. i wonder if there would be other ceremony like a usual Chinese wedding since the reception in on a Friday night.
Can't believe his is getting married already, the lil older brother who used to watch cartoons and play Legos with me. well ,he is just one year older than me, so it makes him only 25.

i like attending weddings, cos everything looks so nice, the couple looks so sweet, the dress is beautiful.. but somehow the idea of marriage..hmm.. is kinda scary. not knowing when and who is the candidate that will be spending the rest of your life with you, or worst, not knowing you want to spend the rest of your life with the person if you are with now. well that is assuming there will not be a divorce..
shoo.. to the negative thoughts..
and back to my kopi ping...and work of course..

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Hancock was a good watch, though it was a 92 mins movie, but i think it was pretty well written. and we had a good dinner too, opted to give Marrybrown a try, and coincidentally, with GSC tickets, we are entitled to a 20% off the bill, plus they give you a buy 2 free 1 voucher for GSC tickets. talk about a win-win situation.. both wins for us that it. hehe

hmm am feeling a lil emo again.

how can things be so great at one moment, and suddenly so messed up the next?

what really went wrong, the understanding or the communication skills? if it is the comm skills, whose role is it to improve?

sigh.

hate awkwards conversations that end with quick judgements.. hate it...

my weekend treat

it is Wednesday already, yay!
and we are goin for a movie tonight, watching Hancock with woman beside, the girl, Ethan and Faye.

the weekend has been great. though i missed my cameron trip, i had a pretty good time with my sissy - Ab. we went to Curve with Mom + Dad, a pretty unusual sight as Dad doesn't like to lepak at malls.. but since he has never been there ( jakunnya!) , we decided to ask him along. hehe.

After spending some money at the stalls at the flea market, we headed to Ikea Cafe for lunch. Was in the queue for food when someone called my name, turned around to find a familiar face smiling at me. I didn't remember his name.. but i knew he was from MMU.. chatted a while and found out he is working in ExxonMobil in KL, very near my working place. said bye and take care.. and i realised.. i still don't know his name. sigh.. bad manners amanda..

we went on our separate ways in Ikea, but we kept bumping into them. hehe..was deciding on getting a full length mirror for my room, but in the end tak jadi also. finally, mom & dad left ikea, buying only 2 pairs of scrubbing brush. hehe..

Abby & I started at Brands Outlet , we had fun trying on countless pairs of sunnies, they were on 50% off, so i decided to get one, after bro broke mine during our Kuantan trip. Finally settled on a pair with diamente! paid for all the items and headed to Padini Concept Store next door, next on the list was MetroJaya, Nicchi Fashion City and finally in search for Genki Sushi. Apparently the outlet had closed down, so we ended up in Sakae Sushi.. which is.. urgh.. not so good. am never goin back there again.. ish..

Damage done for the day : RM 170 only.
Gained : a tube dress, sunnies, bangles, earrings, weekend shorts, and not so good sushi.

the day ended with a short magazine browsing at Borders, while waiting for our ride home..

Fun ! will definitely do it again. but.. this time, gotta make sure Abby brings her own money. each time i bring her out, it's an all expense paid outing. pokai aku...

it's has been a quiet week.
my phone has been quiet. ppl around me has been quiet.. my mind has been quiet. i think the only thing that has been non stop chattering is myself.

have been buggin 'woman' with most of my thoughts. really appreciate that she listens to me go on n on bout the same time. we have this routine of walking back to hang tuah station, and i'll be chattering away.. i actually told her, i'm sorry i've been talking bout myself so much. i know i'm bad at asking ppl how they are doin and what problems they have... but trust me woman.. i can be a good listener.. do talk to me if u need to.

had dinner with woman beside and ah girl. this girl is a really a naive and small girl ler.. despite being only 20 years old, she impresses me with her maturity of speech and the things that bugs her mind. aiyohhh. and i have recently been regarded as a big sis to her, cos she does not have a sis. oh. .another sister? i already have 2. .and now i have 2 yens? hehe.. but i'm glad to have an extra sis too. girl you hear that ?

claypot chicken rice was good.. but.. not long after that.. stomach upset man.. must be the nasi lemak and the curry.. mm.. sensitive-nya perut aku..
then ah girl sent me to KL sentral to take KTM home. bout 2 mins away from Kepong, my beloved train has to stall there for more than 15mins,.. bencinya. though i'm usually thankful there's air con in the train, it was freezing cold tonite.. brrr....

finally the train started moving.. and i got home bout 10 am.. gosh.. am so tired.. physically and mentally...need another dose of kopi ping.. - my current addiction..

gotta ciao - time for desperate housewives

something right

this song has been playing in my head..

Never thought that I'd so inspired
Never thought that I'd find the higher truth
I believed that love was overrated
'Till the moment I found you

Now baby I know I don't deserve
The love you give me
But now I understand that

If you want me I must be doing something right
I got nothing left to prove
And it's all because of you
So if you need me
And baby I make you feel alive
I know I must be doing Doing something right

It's because of you I feel so lifted
I've been looking at my life from higher ground
Never thought I'd be so elated
You're the one that turned it all around
Now baby, I didn't know myself Until you changed me
And made me understand that

If you want me I must be doing something right
I got nothing left to prove
And it's all because of you So if you need me
And baby I make you feel alive
I know I must be doing
Doing something right

And baby I know
I don't deserve the love you give me
But I don't really care, cause

If you want me I must be doing something right
I got nothing left to prove
And it's all because of you So if you need me
And baby I make you feel alive
I know I must be doing
Doing something right

i still feel blank..

was the coldness displayed a gesture from the heart who no longer cares, or was it an act of bitterness over the things that happened?

dinner was great, i had my jap food after all, and it was yum! love japanese food.
but the tension was so great it could cut through .. ermm skin? gosh must really learn how to express things properly.

went home and was feeling empty and confused. it bothers me a lot that you are like this. i dunno if you are feeling resentful or you are just putting it up... i wished i know. i asked a question last night, a ' what if you are in a situation, what will you do?' type of question. i did not share my side of the opinion, cos i thought you could probably evaluate from your own answers.
why are humans always selfish? have you ever found yourself in a situation where it's ok if you do it, but if someone else does it to you, it's totally unacceptable. a thought to ponder..

despite goin home late and turning in late, i slept well.. actually i'm not sure if it's well or not.. becos every morning when i wake up, it feels like i just closed my eyes a moment ago. i wake up without feeling tired, or rested. it's really like i blinked.. and that's all.
mom is getting unhappy with all the late nights, and i've not had dinner at home for quite some time.. since last saturday i wud say, and that was at Belle's wedding dinner.. it was a lovely wedding.. and uncle tom's speech was just so touching.. there was a line that he said " if you love someone, you have to set them free.. " is that what we are doing?

am going to Cameron Highlands this weekend, was looking forward to it , a month ago. but things has changed.. that's what happens when you decide so much earlier.. ur heart was someone else a month ago.. and now it's someone else..

thought for now: shud i or shud i not ?