I'm jinxed !

What happened to my lovely pinky grey background?

It's almost as though I'm jinxed at blog designs.. Every time I meddle with the layout and design, the whole thing screws up..

Anyone out there willing to help me with it? :(

The question

For some reason, I always find myself feeling the loneliest at this hour of the nite. I'm thinking, it's probably because everyone in the house is asleep, and I'm still up? If only the answer is as simple as that. I find myself seeking deeper within myself, and the answer is still not surfacing yet. I keep asking myself the question, but I only have myself to blame that I am not trying my best to answer it, not just yet.

I will ask again tomorrow, and I will have the answer then.

What am I doing?

It's quarter to 11, I'm not sleepy, I'm not out, I'm not interested in FB anymore, what should I do?

Today was spent sitting at home. Got up early to finalise my letter, got it mailed to FL at the post office, sent them an email. I still can't believe it's all over just like that. At least have the courtesy of sitting down nicely and telling me rite?I can't help feeling betrayed too. Lesson learnt this time- do not trust ppl easily, ever again. That's probably one of my biggest weakness, I promised myself many times that I should becareful, and be more wary..but sama jer... tsk tsk tsk.

I received a call from Backhome today. It is a new backpacker in town, infact there was a feature article on last Saturday's Weekender. It is owned by Ng Ping Ho, a local talent. Does the name ring a bell? He is the man behind Kopitiam, Table for Two,Realiti and The Firm. The place looks really cool and cozy, hopefully it will change the perception most will have of local backpackers and hostels. The reason they called? I applied for a postion as Hotel Manager, thought it will be great fun, and it will be a sneak preview of the hospitality industry. The lady who rang mentioned the pay to me, and I have my thoughts about it. We'll see.

Got an email reply from Delectable, it's the cutest lil dessert shop. I came across it in Gardens yesterday when I was bumming around there. Then they were looking for someone too, thought I'll give it a go, since I'm not doing anything at the moment, and it will be great fun as I love baking too. Did a bit more reading on the shop, or more like the creator of the shop. It all started from Su. My my.. she is a very successful girl ! You can read more bout her on her blog - http://cookingismypassion.blogspot.com/.

So you see, nothing much happened today. Be it my social life, my work or others. hang on, what work? ok, that's Work in Progress then.

For now? prob back to my book. Am reading Danielle Steel's Wanderlust.

I wished

There's good and bad points in having so much time on my hands.

Good points :

1. I can read all the books I want to
2. I can watch all the series on my 250GB hard disk
3. I have time to sort out all my NZ pics
4. I have time to clean my room, and rearrange everything
5. I can do my own BootCamp and do yoga every morning
6. I have more time to search for the ideal job
7. I can spend more time with mommy
8. I can catch up with friends and family

Bad points :

1. I am demotivated at times, having no goals at the moment.
2. Too much time to think of the silliest stuff
3. Am checking Facebook so often that there are no more updates to read
4. Seeing all the photos on facebook makes me wanna go back

The only thought on my mind today was... I wanna go back.. I so do... :(

Monday minus the blues...

My first day of bumming around -Phase 2. Day was spent in Midvalley and Gardens. Went down with Sissy, and did a lil shopping with her before she headed back to Kampar. Met up with a friend who happened to be in Midvalley, we sat down for a cup of coffee in Starbucks, Borders, and I went ranting away about things. After he heartlessly dumped me alone, I sat there in Borders and continued reading.

I picked up the book Empress Orchid by AnCheeMin in Kinokuniya last Thursday, read a few chapters and decided that I'm going to just read it from the bookstore. Hrmm.. it's not that I'm a cheapskate, but it's just not one of those books which makes me feel like I must have it. It was just a good read. The last book that I fell in love was " Secrets of a Rainbow Goddess", it was one book that I couldn't put down until I completed it. And I remember crying after reading the ending of the book. Ok, I admit that I cry easily, but this is the very first time I have shed tears reading a book. It was as though I really felt what the character was going through in the story. Wanna read it? gimme a buzz.

Back to Empress Orchid, I did not actually complete the book, I finished a lil more than half of the book, and find it a little too much for my brain today. The book combines fiction and a lot of historical facts in there, thus the overdose. Shall return to Borders this week to finish reading it.