Friday, October 24, 2008

another week..another break

Finally it's Friday !! lalalala....

"I can feel your happiness, so tell me how's this happiness of yours progressing..."

That's what my friend said to me just now over the phone when i was sounding him for not calling and texting me for weeks.. what an idiot ! but a dear idiot he is lar.. you know how each of us have a buddy who you can just scold, yell and bitch to bout your most horrifying day..and then at the same time ask them if you are fat.. and they wil say.. just a bit.. hahaha
i'm lucky to have not just one but a few of them. hehe. so i'm contented.

It is finally the end of the week and the beginning of the long weekend. and it's my birthday on Sunday! I still feel like a 5-yr old when it comes to my birthday each year. and always silently hoping for surprises. oops. did i just say that out loud? ha ha

It has been the craziest and most stressful weeks lately, mayb it's just myself, panic-king and thinking too much ahead.. or mayb there are really many things that i ought to be doing and have not got to them yet. All the ideas are forming, but i never seem to have enough time to do everything, and can't set my own pace to do it. Aargh, it gets so frustrating at times.. I know what to do. .and I want to do it. .but have not done it. Darn, it's BUT again..
Attended Don Power's training last week, and he mentioned bout the usage of the word BUT. Am super conscious on me using it each time, and trying to minimize that. Picked up a few interesting tips from his training as well.. again.. noted it down de, just gotta put it into action!

Am suppose to be sleeping now, cos I gotta wake up early and get my butt out of the house at 7am, for paintball tournament in Shah Alam. Have not been to any game, no idea how it would be like, (can only picture the paintball episode from Ugly Betty, and i know that's so not the way it will be !) The only thing i know so far bout it is, PAINFUL. Everyone is saying that.. painful followed by the word - bruised. Yikes ! *Gulp* can i not play tmr?

ok ok .. I'm running off to bed now..still trying to imagine what's goin to happen tmr...

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

i survived

I survived my day. and it's finally past 5.30pm. For some reason, time seems to be passing really slow today..sigh. and to make things worst, i'm having that weirdy feeling in my stomach. yikes. hate it ler ! Craving for warm chocolatey stuff.. hehe. Chocolate is always a woman's best friend.That reminds me that i should probably stock up some in my drawer. So much for the avoid chocs rule - dumb melamine issue. Rule of thumb - a lil won't hurt you !

anticipation

Took the train to work today and got the chance to get a glimpse of my min bau chai. he is sooo cute ler. Even cooked up a plan with sissy to get his phone number.. omg. so high school. Bought my fav fish fillet bun and a bottle of soya bean and i'm ready to go.

The train journey wasn't too bad today, no disruptions, no delays and there's aircon. Well, that's the best you can ask from the the KTM. Seriously, they need to have major upgrades going, you can see a lil progress in the KL Sentral stop, as they have came up with the Easi-Queue system. They have finally realized that ppl push and storm in order to get in and out of the train. Thank god they did ! I've witnessed enough angry people, pickpocket victims, and poor old uncle aunties trying to push their way out of the train. Let's all cross our fingers and hope they keep up the good work !

It's a sunny day and i'm all ready to take the day ! i think. hahaha

Can't wait to watch my Desperate Housewives season 5 ! It's out ! it's out !

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Unmet expectations

a week has passed since i was blank, worried, and stressed out

I'm still stressed out. It has been the busiest week ever with lotsa expectations from different parties around me. but i think the hardest to meet, are the invisible expectations that i put on myself. and to make things worst, they blocked Facebook at work. There goes my 5 mins stress reliever at 5.30pm.

Work has been hectic lately, social life has been.. wait a minute what social life? Half of the time, i find myself too tired to drag myself in for a shower before i go to bed. ( but i do lar !) To make things crazier, I took up a commitment with Megakidz on weekends. It's fun... but it's tiring too..

It's Sunday and here i am blogging from office. Came down to do some work, in order to prepare for the week ahead. the idea might sound absurd to some, but i like the serenity that i get working in the office alone. It's quiet, and i get to do my work at my own pace. I woke up early this morn, put my laundry in the washer, went back to sleep till 9.30am, only to be waken by my phone ringing. Got into the longest conversation ever, a tired and winding one. sigh. After some food, i went to bed.. yeah what a pig. slept till 1pm when mom,dad are back from bukit tinggi. Drag myself out of bed and made my way down here... and i'm glad i came.

On my journey here, i did a lot of thinking with my desperately tired brain and mind. Thought bout the past, present and possibly the future. There's just so much ringing in my head. I don't know which voice i should listen to. All of a sudden i feel lost.. I wanna run away.. to find my answers, wanna take a long break.. and hide from my sorrows...

Friday, October 10, 2008

blank

so blank. so stressed out. so worried..

whatever....

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

shattered

Came back from lunch and was seated at my desk, have another 10 mins of Facebookin-time. That's when we heard the loud crash right outside the department, all sorts of negative thoughts crossed my mind in that split second. Walked out of the department, and this was what we saw..



The glass door of the meeting room cracked and shattered all over the floor. How it happened? No one has the slightest idea... could be the temperature in the room.. or an angry ghost?