Trick or Treat!!

My first Trick or Treat in my life. The staff of the service office here takes it seriously about celebrating every event, (so I heard), so they came around with little plastic pumpkin lanterns, and candies. Cool aye? And to the rest, Happy Halloween !!

It's lunch time now, and I'm sipping my cup of coffee, and had a banana muffin. I can't wait to see Katy at 4.30pm !! yay !

a familiar new start

It's Day 4 at work. Getting on just alrite, with a great view from Level 36, and a lovely office, with an awesome pantry. Seems like a good start! A very familiar feeling though, with it being a similiar role, I have the same doubts I had back then. Nevertheless, I'm giving myself a trial period. And the constant reading about the financial industry is keeping me busy, it almost feels like being a student again! minus the classmates..and cute lecturer.

Been making some rules for myself, or more like resolutions. Am determined to make it happen, wait.. determination alone is ain't enough. Am practising it ! Results will be unveiled by end of 2009. Muahah.

It's few more hours to 6pm, time seems to be passing quite fast today, could be the late lunch hour. hrmm.. Katy is coming to KL tomorrow, can't wait to see her. Oh, mom n dad are coming home today too, can't wait to have them back. It's been just piggy and me at home, and it's so lonely and quiet, plus playing mom is so tiring, waking up at 6.45am to send piggy to school, gosh.. Mom, I really admire you. Don't ever leave us for long trips again, untill piggy finishes form 5 of cos!

This year

25 years ago on this day, mom waited in pain for about 12 hours, before I decided to come out to this world.

It's 26 October tomorrow, not only it's the mark of my 25th birthday, it's the mark of a new start. It will be my first day at work, after 6 months living as a backpacker, I am stepping back into reality, back into the corporate working environment. I wonder how fast I will adapt.

Yesterday, bro and sis threw me a lil suprise, together with 2 dear friends, it was a good one, thanks guys.

As I blew out the candle on my lil cake last nite, I was told to make a wish. I closed my eyes and then I blew the candle, but I said no wishes, simply because I don't know what I should ask for. I will sleep on it tonite.

Lastly, happy bday to myself ;)

I baked..

I opened the fridge and saw cream cheese, butter and a pack of digestive on the table.. I knew what he was up to - baked cheesecake. Since I have the time, I seized the opportunity to do some baking. After 2 hours of baking, and a night of chilling, ta daa ....

Happy Deepavali !

It is Deepavali tomorrow, would like to wish all my Hindu friends , a Happy Diwali !

Deepavali - A colorful festival that is celebrated by all Hindus worldwide is Deepavali, which is also known as the festival of lights. This festival usually falls around late October and November. One important practice that the Hindus follow during the festival is to light oil lamps in their homes on Deepavali morning. By lighting the oil lamps, the Hindus are thanking the gods for the happiness, knowledge, peace and wealth that they have received. The Hindus consider Deepavali as one of the most important festivals to celebrate.

The fireworks outside has been going on for about an hour now. It's no mistake that the Indian community is celebrating it on a grander scale now. Back then, we could only witness fireworks on the eve of 3 public holidays - National Day, Christmas, and New Year's Day.

Today, fireworks are lit on every other celebration, even on a housewarming party at times. Eversince I came home, I can't help noticing the differences in our Malaysian lifestyle, and at times, I wonder why we are moving on yet stagnant. A contradiction you may find, but the former simply refers to the advancement in terms of technology and standard of living, and the latter - our mentality. I wonder when we Malaysians can be totally civilised and well mannered. Many visiting tourists has only praises for us when it comes to the Malaysian Hospitality, even MAS has that on their tagline. MH - Malaysian Hospitality, More than just a flight code. But, little do they know about the ugly behaviour that is sometimes on display. I love my country a lot, and totally proud of our colourful culture, but I personally think we have a long way to go to better ourselves, to put Malaysia on the stage.

And for now, let us indulge in the colourful cookies and candies on a Deepavali open house. Am going to a friend's place tomorrow for lunch. Can't wait !

Any progress?

It's about time to keep tab of my progress, on what? on my life of course. Have been feeling a little lost and still dreaming at some point. It's been almost a month since I got back, and I still have that thought at the back of my mind " I wanna stay there..." I guess I have to work hard for that. I have to keep saying positive statements, a section in "The Secret" says like attracts like. So here it is again, I need to work hard to go back !

Jobhunt has been done in vain, I am ashamed that after all these years, I still don't know what I'm good at... and what I can do with it. Any pointers? Attended ONE interview so far, it was ok, but I'm still hunting of course. As for that business idea in my mind, I realised that I will need some capital to do that, and also a business proposal to start with, of course. Sigh, it's not one of my favourite thing to do, oh wait, I don't even know how to do that. Shame on me, a business student, yea rite!

Other than my job hunt, everything else has been pretty alrite I guess. Have been wanting to meet up with most friends since I got back, but a spell of laziness has came over me, and I have been very reluctant to step out of the house. I'm sorry dearies..
My normal routine now includes going to the market with mom, hunting for jobs online, planting and harvesting on Farmville and a few other chores. One of them include checking Facebook every 1 hour, perhaps? That's a sign that I'm too free.. I know. I can't help noticing the number of weddings happening around me, I attended 2 myself, since I came back end of Sept. And a few questions have been raised to me, or more like to mom, when is her turn to be a mother-in-law ? Hahaha.... my answer would be.. " ni man man deng" -> slowly wait.. I don't think it's happening anytime soon, moreover, I have a totally different view on marriages now.. Not entirely negative.. just different.

It's sunshine after the rain

It started as a lil conversation between us, and it ended up as a group talk, with me listening to each of their view. At the end, there were tears and laughter. And mom had to come in and witness. Yikes !

I'm so glad we talked things out...

I'll always love you ... Alicia, Andrew and Abby. Muahss !

Tonight...

Tonight, I am feeling a lil emo. A common term in our Manglish - Malaysian English. The word translates to feeling emotional, depressed, mixed up. Anyone with a better definition? I don't know what made me feel like this tonite, it's prob a series of things that happened these few days. I hate that I'm feeling so moody lately, it's almost like an emotional rollercoaster - cheerful, happy, determined, notti, empty, and sometimes lost. What exactly am I looking for? What do I want?

Tonight, I'm thinking about someone, infact it's not just tonight, i thought about how much we cared for each other, how he makes me laugh, and how i kept the whole lot of texts from him in my phone. It's funny how things are sweet between us, but it just ain't goin anywhere. i'm missing you hun.

Tonight, I'm sitting here , browsing through the long list of friends on my facebook, which is 633 friends at the moment. It got me thinking, who are all these ppl ? When was the last time I met some of them?Staying friends, takes effort from both sides...that's what I think. I'm ashamed to admit that I probably keep in touch with just 10% of them, or maybe less. So , I went on and click on them randomly and dropped them a note.

Tonight, I'm sitting here, writing halfway, and I find myself dumbfounded... I don't know what to write next... so tonight, I 'll have my first unfinished post...

A visit to the dentist

I had to visit my dentist the other day, one of my tooth required some fillings. Too much of sweets in NZ, it must be. So I went over to the dentist at 9am in the morning, I didn't have any appointments made, well I did, but it was on 20th Oct, and my tooth can't wait that long.. that was why I decided to walk in and wait all day till the dentist was free to attend to me. I was called into the surgery room ( that was written on the door!) at 10.30am, and I sat there on the dentist chair waiting for her to attend to me. The anticipation was worst than getting inked - It was a similar chair at the tattoo parlour. The dentist was a nice young lady, I don't know why but I always thought that Dr. Mah was a middle aged Chinese woman. She told me that the damage on my tooth was only moderate and not as serious as I thought it was. The whole process + scaling was done in about an hour's time. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was. Phew.. mission of the day accomplished - Tooth was patched.

memories of the past..

I spent a day with a dear friend, he wanted some company and suggested karaoke, and I agreed. So we sang our heart out for almost 3 hours. I pity the people in the room next to us, cos they had to put up with my horrible singing.

As I walked around Sg Wang, memories of my working days came flashing through my mind. As we made our way to Pavilion for a drink, vivid memories of the many lunches and shopping trips I had appeared before me. We finally decided to have a drink in La Bodega, I decided that I've had enough beer and wine in the past 6 months, so I settled for a refreshing smoothie, and my friend had a German beer. I shared with him my many stories in NZ, mainly about the many people whom I crossed paths with, and also about him. Memories of that first walk, and the first text, the first choc treat, it was all so clear. Being back here in KL, in familiar environments that were once a daily scene, made me feel like I was in a dream for the past 6 months, and everything that happened was just memories, well sweet ones at least.

We spent a goof few hours chatting, and decided to leave before the rush hour. Once again, I walked the familiar path down to KLCC, we were going to take the LRT. I've only been away for 6 months, how would one feel, if one has been away for years? Is it just me that is feeling emotional?

A song that reminded me of Chez La Mer