my weekend treat

it is Wednesday already, yay!
and we are goin for a movie tonight, watching Hancock with woman beside, the girl, Ethan and Faye.

the weekend has been great. though i missed my cameron trip, i had a pretty good time with my sissy - Ab. we went to Curve with Mom + Dad, a pretty unusual sight as Dad doesn't like to lepak at malls.. but since he has never been there ( jakunnya!) , we decided to ask him along. hehe.

After spending some money at the stalls at the flea market, we headed to Ikea Cafe for lunch. Was in the queue for food when someone called my name, turned around to find a familiar face smiling at me. I didn't remember his name.. but i knew he was from MMU.. chatted a while and found out he is working in ExxonMobil in KL, very near my working place. said bye and take care.. and i realised.. i still don't know his name. sigh.. bad manners amanda..

we went on our separate ways in Ikea, but we kept bumping into them. hehe..was deciding on getting a full length mirror for my room, but in the end tak jadi also. finally, mom & dad left ikea, buying only 2 pairs of scrubbing brush. hehe..

Abby & I started at Brands Outlet , we had fun trying on countless pairs of sunnies, they were on 50% off, so i decided to get one, after bro broke mine during our Kuantan trip. Finally settled on a pair with diamente! paid for all the items and headed to Padini Concept Store next door, next on the list was MetroJaya, Nicchi Fashion City and finally in search for Genki Sushi. Apparently the outlet had closed down, so we ended up in Sakae Sushi.. which is.. urgh.. not so good. am never goin back there again.. ish..

Damage done for the day : RM 170 only.
Gained : a tube dress, sunnies, bangles, earrings, weekend shorts, and not so good sushi.

the day ended with a short magazine browsing at Borders, while waiting for our ride home..

Fun ! will definitely do it again. but.. this time, gotta make sure Abby brings her own money. each time i bring her out, it's an all expense paid outing. pokai aku...

it's has been a quiet week.
my phone has been quiet. ppl around me has been quiet.. my mind has been quiet. i think the only thing that has been non stop chattering is myself.

have been buggin 'woman' with most of my thoughts. really appreciate that she listens to me go on n on bout the same time. we have this routine of walking back to hang tuah station, and i'll be chattering away.. i actually told her, i'm sorry i've been talking bout myself so much. i know i'm bad at asking ppl how they are doin and what problems they have... but trust me woman.. i can be a good listener.. do talk to me if u need to.

had dinner with woman beside and ah girl. this girl is a really a naive and small girl ler.. despite being only 20 years old, she impresses me with her maturity of speech and the things that bugs her mind. aiyohhh. and i have recently been regarded as a big sis to her, cos she does not have a sis. oh. .another sister? i already have 2. .and now i have 2 yens? hehe.. but i'm glad to have an extra sis too. girl you hear that ?

claypot chicken rice was good.. but.. not long after that.. stomach upset man.. must be the nasi lemak and the curry.. mm.. sensitive-nya perut aku..
then ah girl sent me to KL sentral to take KTM home. bout 2 mins away from Kepong, my beloved train has to stall there for more than 15mins,.. bencinya. though i'm usually thankful there's air con in the train, it was freezing cold tonite.. brrr....

finally the train started moving.. and i got home bout 10 am.. gosh.. am so tired.. physically and mentally...need another dose of kopi ping.. - my current addiction..

gotta ciao - time for desperate housewives

something right

this song has been playing in my head..

Never thought that I'd so inspired
Never thought that I'd find the higher truth
I believed that love was overrated
'Till the moment I found you

Now baby I know I don't deserve
The love you give me
But now I understand that

If you want me I must be doing something right
I got nothing left to prove
And it's all because of you
So if you need me
And baby I make you feel alive
I know I must be doing Doing something right

It's because of you I feel so lifted
I've been looking at my life from higher ground
Never thought I'd be so elated
You're the one that turned it all around
Now baby, I didn't know myself Until you changed me
And made me understand that

If you want me I must be doing something right
I got nothing left to prove
And it's all because of you So if you need me
And baby I make you feel alive
I know I must be doing
Doing something right

And baby I know
I don't deserve the love you give me
But I don't really care, cause

If you want me I must be doing something right
I got nothing left to prove
And it's all because of you So if you need me
And baby I make you feel alive
I know I must be doing
Doing something right

i still feel blank..

was the coldness displayed a gesture from the heart who no longer cares, or was it an act of bitterness over the things that happened?

dinner was great, i had my jap food after all, and it was yum! love japanese food.
but the tension was so great it could cut through .. ermm skin? gosh must really learn how to express things properly.

went home and was feeling empty and confused. it bothers me a lot that you are like this. i dunno if you are feeling resentful or you are just putting it up... i wished i know. i asked a question last night, a ' what if you are in a situation, what will you do?' type of question. i did not share my side of the opinion, cos i thought you could probably evaluate from your own answers.
why are humans always selfish? have you ever found yourself in a situation where it's ok if you do it, but if someone else does it to you, it's totally unacceptable. a thought to ponder..

despite goin home late and turning in late, i slept well.. actually i'm not sure if it's well or not.. becos every morning when i wake up, it feels like i just closed my eyes a moment ago. i wake up without feeling tired, or rested. it's really like i blinked.. and that's all.
mom is getting unhappy with all the late nights, and i've not had dinner at home for quite some time.. since last saturday i wud say, and that was at Belle's wedding dinner.. it was a lovely wedding.. and uncle tom's speech was just so touching.. there was a line that he said " if you love someone, you have to set them free.. " is that what we are doing?

am going to Cameron Highlands this weekend, was looking forward to it , a month ago. but things has changed.. that's what happens when you decide so much earlier.. ur heart was someone else a month ago.. and now it's someone else..

thought for now: shud i or shud i not ?

the night i cried

It was a great night.. movie and dinner (though the jap food which i have been craving didn't happen - it was KFC instead), and i ended up with lotsa choccies, green tea, lemon green tea - all from marks n spencers.. he likes to shop there..

i got down from the car and walked back to my house.. waited bout 10 mins before my sister realised that i was outside the gate.. urm harlo? the curtains are down.. but nyways, thanks sissy for always waiting up for me.

went up to my room, and there i was breaking down into tears, sissy noticed it and asked why, was there a fight again? no there wasn't one.. then what happened she asked?

i spilled out the whole conversation to sissy and as i was doing it, tears just kept streaming down my face.. i was really sad, but at the same time i know what took place was for the better..though words have been said over n over again.. but this time it feels a little more final..thanks dear for everything. of all the things i ever wanted.. i really want you to happy again..

then i went to bed..feeling blank...


thought for now : an emo post to start my day?